March 3, 2007

Are You Feeling Uneasy

We all feel uneasy in different life situations and many times during the day. Most of the times, we are not even able to identify that there is feeling of uneasiness, as most of our efforts and attention goes into avoiding it, not to feel it. And that is obvious, nobody likes to be uneasy.

But what is this uneasiness? Why does it occur? What makes us feel uncomfortable? Let's go back to that feeling. Let's feel it as it is. Let us see what happens at that time. If we observe deeply, uneasiness is nothing but an internal discussion, a fast dialogue going on inside our mind. There are two arguments going on. One wants to take you towards one direction and second wants you to be in another.

Actually this dialogue, this discussion goes on so fast that we cannot even see or know what are the thoughts rushing through the mind. Pull and push continues, but as you are not involved consiously in it, the dialogue goes on only at surface level. You would have experiened sometimes that in uneasiness feeling, a single thought or a couple of thoughts keep occuring and repeating in mind. So both sides keep pulling you in their direction, without giving you a chance to understand the matter. Most of the times, you even do not know the subject matter or the cause of uneasiness. Sometimes you know it, but the rattling does not allow you concentrate anywhere. Rather, it makes you feel like running from it and when u are running away, how can you understand it.

Now, as the discussion goes on only at surface level, without going deeper into the matter, it remains at the same level and does not get solved. And your irritation and uneasiness level rises. The serious levels of depression are result of this phenomena, when the uneasiness feeling is not resolved at the earlier stage itself.

So, how to get out of uneasiness. It is very simple and rather full of fun. Whenever, you feel uneasy, say STOP very loudly in your mind, give a jerk to your body and open your eyes wide. Now you are fully awake.

Now, with full compassion and love ask (as if u are asking two fighting children), what is
the trouble? The answer may not come immediately. There might be silence for sometime. Just see it. You might get some words or sentences, which might not make sense. You might also get a comlete arguement coupled with a contrary point of view on a matter.

Listen to each of your thought. There will be contradictions, there will be traditions fighting logic, there will be culture fighting freedom and many more. Listen to them patiently, not to get rid of them, but to have fun out of it. Do not rush anywhere. be with them. Just listen, do not try to provide any solution or comment. Just be present. Just obeserve it curiously as a third party who is present there just for the sake of it. You will find that your mind has become lighter and the conclusion is in front of you.

Most of the times, you will be surprised to note how useless and irrelevant rattling was going on in your mind. Many times, it will give you a feeling of Eureka. Many times you will feel that you have got closer to yourself. And every time, you will feel more relaxed and lighter.

So next time, if you feel uneasy, get ready to have fun.

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